Sleep, The Devil, Rabbits & Troubadours

by billy burke on May 25, 2011

I’m going to out myself. I’m going to admit that despite all the stuff it looks like I’m up to all the time, the reality is that I am a hopelessly and shamelessly, lazy fuck. I suppose the irony to that fact is… that because I am never satisfied with anything, I am constantly and perpetually compelled to improve the shit I do and in order to maintain a truly blissful lazy existence, one would have to feel complacent with that shit not getting done, let alone getting done right.

I really dig sleeping. I miss it. But that little luxury boat left the harbor 2 & a half years ago when my daughter Bluesy LaRue was born. The irony to THAT fact being– she’s the only thing I’ve ever really done that was unequivocally right. With more plentiful, albeit resented waking hours, it’s still a tight fist that holds the reigns to any carriage I believe only “I” can drive. I expect this to make sense only to those like me, who are tormented by the possibility of “perfection” yet continually punched in the face by mediocrity’s jolly fist.

Ambition is the devil. Ask too much of him, he’ll only slow you down. Ask too little, he’ll pull out your eyes and point them back at you. Ignore him and he’ll laugh in your face like a 300 pound concupiscent cellmate until you cower onto your belly and receive him. So, in the interest of avoiding the devil’s front-tail, I am doing what keeps him at bey and giving the appearance that I’m once again, steadfastly pursuing my ambitions. Please be advised, this confession should not be misconstrued in ANY way. My inherent need to pour my stupid guts into each and every venture I set forth upon will always win the battle against my lackadaisical nature. Really, this preface is only a long winded, flowery way of saying that although it’s been a long stretch since my last post (coming up on a year), there will always be a daisy up my sleeve and a litter of rabbits waiting to be yanked out of my dusty, wilting hat.

My family and I spent only a few months out of 2010 at home. Mostly, we resided away on film locations in “other one homes”– a term Bluesy coined. Like her dad, I think she actually embraces and perhaps prefers living on the road (but I’m probably just projecting my own childhood fantasies onto my only offspring). Looking back on the year we stole together, I’m reminded that all meaningful experiences begin with a question mark and results can only be regarded as fleeting. The ride is the trip, kids. Knowing we survived it without dissolving into a cliché reaffirms my belief that anything is possible when “quit” is not an option. So now, with all production of the “mustache movies” neatly tucked behind us, the pages of an unknown chapter lay in wait. Some reading this may be asking “what’s next?”. The most truthful response I could give would be, “I feel secure with nothing. Ever. However, I feel pretty safe in saying that I have NO fucking idea what’s next for me”.

At heart, I am a troubadour, but real troubadours have no ties and no borders. By definition this label leaves my outlook in an ongoing scourge between who I’ve become… and what I believe myself to be. The genuine answer to “what’s next?” lies in the illusive conviction I must find. I’d love to put together a little tour, you know — to sing my songs, find my instinct and fulfill at least an appetizer portion of the initial dream. But the hungry machine I’ve inadvertently created in the accidental interim has to feed somehow, lest it devour itself or starve from disinterest.

And so, as I draw the curtain on these late but brief, narcissistic musings from a warm-winded Caribbean balcony overlooking the Yucatan coast (the ONLY vacation we’ve taken since getting married and having Bluesy), I’m reminded that those who once inhabited this heavenly region had a calendar that abruptly just STOPS on a date in the not so distant future. Let’s imagine for a moment that these kooky Mayans end up being right. The end? Or perhaps just a new beginning? Either way, it would mean that we’ve all got about a year and a half to squeeze some significance out of our collective existences and guide our energies in a new direction. What I’d like to do is wrap up this post with an unoriginal question of existential unimportance…

If this IS all there IS, and the END was indeed predictable and just ahead…

What would you give? What would you take? Where would you go? Where would you stay?Who would you kiss? Who would you punch in the face? What laws would you make (more importantly which ones would you get rid of)? Who’s mind would you steal? What music would be the soundtrack to your departure/arrival? C’mon, If you could start from scratch, knowing what you know… how would it be different? What’s “next” for YOU?

I wanna know. Hit me back.

As always, Much Love -bb

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Julianna October 30, 2013 at 10:05 pm

Btw..Mr. Burke you are NOT Lazy! omg..Anyone who works 12-16 hours a Day, 6 days a week Should feel like doing NOTHING when they aren’t working..that’s just Normal..and not being in a hurry to the next thing..well..hell.. Sir, that’s just another sign of your higher intelligence :)


Julianna October 29, 2013 at 10:28 pm

I would suggest that the Govt & Very Wealthy help the poor more..I’d DEFINITELY FIND a WAY to be SO RICH that I could NEVER GIVE ENOUGH..So that ANYTIME ANYONE needed ANYTHING, I Could Help..Feed them, Heal them, Give them Shelter, Clothing..Blankets, WHATEVER They Needed!!! OH the RICH have it so Good..they can give & give and never feel it, but at least Someone can. So, In this life if I cannot give more myself, I will support Great people like Billy Burke who have really good hearts who can & do help as much as possible!!! More Power to Him!!!


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Kate October 6, 2012 at 9:43 am

First of all, a big thank you for sharing yourself so freely. You post brought smirks and smiles to my face. But your questions at the end brought genuine tears to my eyes. Those are questions I don’t even want to ask myself, let alone answer to the world. I’m kind of stuck in the frame of mind of your song, “Never learn, never lose.” Hopefully that explains a lot!

I faced my existential crisis two years ago when I was diagnosed with colon cancer at age 27. When I found out the life I faced after the cancer surgery, I decided not to fight it. I decided to take the year I had left and work on getting a tan on a small island in the Caribbean. There is no real beauty like the Caribbean. But despite or perhaps in spite of my fears, I elected to undergo the surgery. I would live broken, but I would live. As the great Chuck Palahniuk put it in his novel, “Survivor,” “You have a choice. Live or die. Every breath is a choice. Every minute is a choice. Every time you don’t throw yourself down the stairs, that’s a choice, Every time you don’t crash your car, you re-enlist.’

The most difficult question you asked was what we would do differently if we knew then what we know now. Even hindsight isn’t 20/20. There are things we’ll never know/understand, even about ourselves. As Brenda put it in “The Closer” (in which you were beyond awesome), “‘If’ is a hard word to live with.” Mostly, I tell myself what I read in the novel, “This is where I leave you” by Jonathan Tropper. “Can I have a do-over, please? I swear to God I’ll make a real go of it this time.”

As for the question of music, Jakob Dylan’s band, “The Wallflowers” have been the soundtrack to my life for he past 16 years. The first time I heard their song, “God says nothing back” I said, “That’s the song I want to die to.” I know we don’t usually get to pick those things, but if I could, that would be it. Your music has joined the soundtrack to my life, for better or worse. After all, “Never learn, never lose” isn’t the best song to listen to when you’re down! But it’s a part of me now. And I thank you for it.

All the best to you and yours,


Kate October 6, 2012 at 11:26 pm

Wow, reading over that I sound really depressed. And that’s not it. I’m at a point in my life that I’m sure we’ve all been at. At that juncture between on chapter of our lives and the next. And sometimes it’s really scary to turn that page, to make that leap.

The good news is that my husband found the kleenex I’d been using to wipe away the tears those questions brought about and it started a conversation that’s needed to happen for many years. For that, I owe you more than I can say. And every day I get closer to writing that new chapter. I’m leaving my husband behind in TN and moving back to southern California. I’m going to do what made me so happy in college. I’m going to be a video editor again. My marriage to a soldier derailed that dream. But my husband has set me free with his best wishes. An outcome that is more than I could have wished for. And all of this I owe to you.

Thank you. Truly thank you.



Carrie Lavery September 7, 2011 at 9:11 pm

You are one of the few “famous, or infamous’ people that are actually the way I had imagined they would be. Your intellegence and honesty fed my soul when I read your profile. I know that whether you sit on a hot, breezy Mexican coastline or act or sing to adoring crowds, you will be exactly where and who you should be. You will be a success at whatever you do and I will be there to hear your music or watch you in film and be glad there are people in the world like Billy Burke! Thanks man…


shelley Hit August 5, 2011 at 2:10 pm

I wouldn’t change much of anything as it has made me who I am today. I lost my Mom a year ago on August 30th, so I would say I would have to say I wold love to have had more time with her. I probably would have had more of my poetry published (only tried and succeeded at one being published; however I, continue to write. No intentions of wanting to be published. I am not into the self-gratifing things. I have a handful of friends that I have had since I was 13 and cherish them. I could have married for money but married for love. I have had money and had none and been in between. Money doesn’t make people happy. I say “If you wake up, it is a good day”. Since you were so open in your website, I will share a poem I wrote recently. Please understand that I am not depressed, but August has been filled with turmoil for me for years so here it is:
A hurricane of emotions followed by and undulation of tears because of an ephemereal enigma which has left me vexed. I long for the elucidation for the torrid torment of August with each passing year. by Shelley Hitt 8-1-11.

If you and your family ever really need to get away, I live in Southwest GA. I don’t appear on a GPS. My family and I have 13 acres and lots of rescued animals including a mini goat. I would let you do a background check on me lol so that you would find that we are stable normal people lol. I am not a person who is into the star gazing other than on a blanket with my family watching the night sky. I would love to hear back from you to know if you are as down to earth as you seem. I love the free download by the way. You are an incredible artist. I had no idea you were into music. All the best to you and your family.

Shelley Hitt


Claudia**App Chix** July 6, 2011 at 2:09 am


You wanted a little Chix feedback. Is it too late to join the party? To put it as succinctly as possible, I wouldn’t a change a thing from my life. I am the sum total of my experiences. My husband, son and new daughter are with me because of all the triumphs and tragedies of my life. There are moments that make me cringe and want to wash away from the recesses of my mind, but I remind myself that those were the “teachable moments”.

So what is next? Motherhood. I’ve adopted a beautiful daughter from China. Stop by the app and read all about it. We can compare stories! :^)


arayaly June 19, 2011 at 4:03 pm

hola Billy B. solo quiero decirte que me gustas como actor y como cantante, asi que echale ganas y mas nada, deja de dormir tanto, jaja ya que dormido uno se pierde muchas cosas.
cariños desde Venezuela. Yaly


Lise-lou June 18, 2011 at 4:22 pm

Ah Billy, you make me laugh and you make me smile don’t ever change. To quote a great line from a song…..”do what you want to do be what you want to be yeah”. And that my friend is all we can ask of ourselves :)


mirtha June 9, 2011 at 4:24 am

Life is gone so quickly that just try to enjoy every moment in it. love your lives ones and be loved, one day we will all meet somewhere, in heaven or not, what do we know, i hope so. Don’t regret never in anything that you do in life, be happy, relax, and be humble. Love your loved one and love yourself. And Billy. Don’t change, Have a little faith.


Heather *app chix* June 6, 2011 at 3:47 am

So great to hear from you again! Glad you had a good vacation! To answer your questions here ya go:

What would you give? I would give all that I know to my sweet baby girl so that she wouldn’t make the same mistakes that I have and give as much love to everyone that I could so that those who’ve felt unloved would understand its greatness.

What would you take? I would take nothing. I have all the material things I need and if it was the end, then I wouldn’t need anything else.

Where would you go? I would go with my family to as many beautiful places the world has to offer that we could fit in!

Where would you stay? I would stay cuddled up with my family in a warm bed all day filled with laughs and kisses!

Who would you kiss? My amazing husband and my sweet baby girl!

Who would you punch in the face? Probably all the people who are idiots and don’t appreciate whats right in front of them, family included!

What laws would you make (more importantly which ones would you get rid of)? We have enough laws and I think theirs really only one we need to follow, Treat others the way you want to be treated! If we all followed this one we wouldn’t need any others!

Who’s mind would you steal? I enjoy my own mind but if I had to choose probably a child’s because of the way they are able to see things so purely and with the acceptance of flaws without judgment!

What music would be the soundtrack to your departure/arrival? I say every second changes and so does the music right along with it. From a love song, to a song of redemption or loss those are the tracks of our emotions.

C’mon, If you could start from scratch, knowing what you know… how would it be different? It would be different because I would appreciate everything, and take for granted nothing! I would see people and things for what they are, and not what I want, or wanted them to be or become because those veils only hide the truth of a person!

What’s “next” for YOU? Up next for me is to continue my greatest occupation yet as a Mommy! Spending time with my sweet girl is all that matters to her and in turn all that matters to me! Also hopefully finish my schooling to expand my mind and my families possibilities! My hubby graduates soon and is such a great provider both emotionally and physically and I hope to always be able to do the same!

Much Love B!

Heather *app chix*


Dana June 4, 2011 at 2:14 am

Billy, I wish I knew, I have no idea what’s ahead for me. The only think I do know is that if this were the end, I would kiss my son’s face so hard because above all else he’s the reason I get up in the morning. I’ve got everything because I have him, otherwise I have nothing. He is the one thing I did right as well. Geez, you gave me a lot to think about.


Petra June 2, 2011 at 3:58 pm

Hey B!
It’s me… again, and I’d like to add a few more thoughts to this. Asking questions like this and thinking about the answers is (of course) nothing more than a theoretical exercise… like you said “let’s imagine”.
And I think in the end none of this will really matter. Because honestly… I wouldn’t believe in the end of the world anyway, no matter who predicts it. I’d no sooner believe that the end is nigh than it’s right in front of me staring straight into my face and ripping my life out of my surprised hands! Because the last part of me that will die… is my hope.
And I think that is the case for most people.

People live and survive on hope… even when the situation is officially hopeless, they still don’t give up.
The Rapture was supposed to happen a few weeks ago… And? Did our civilization go wild, pack their stuff, burn down their houses, move to another country and kiss the first nice person they met?
No, they hoped that the prediction was wrong… and it was. The same will happen at the end of the Mayan calendar. People will not throw all caution to the wind. They will stay put and hope that whatever is coming will just pass by.
And this is not meant halfway as negative as it might sound… Thinking up situations like this is important from time to time to help us remember all those little divine things in our lives we keep forgetting while we’re wrapped up in all that mundane every-day stuff.

But do we need the end of the world to actually DO all those beautiful little things people have listed here, like hugging our loved ones, laughing a lot and enjoying life? No.
And the big things, the radical changes?
We don’t need the end of the world for that either. The only thing that’s keeping us from doing all those reckless things we dream about… is balance.
Balance between the desire to do what we “always wanted to do” and the readiness to accept the consequences of those actions.
If that desire becomes stronger on the one side or if impending doom eliminates the consequences on the other, it tilts the scales and suddenly you find yourself saying “Fuck it, I’m bungee jumping off this bridge.”
But as long as the consequences remain on one side (and they will… right till the end, thanks to mankind’s tendency to hope) and the desired change is not too profound on the other, we stay… on top of the bridge and in perfect balance.

So, if we’re really honest here for a moment, we all ARE quite happy with our lives just the way they are.
If we weren’t we’d have changed them by now.

And to end this post… now for something completely different. ;)
I’ve been tossing a thought around for the past few days and I’d like to put a little (musical) bug in your ear, B…
Have you ever considered learning to play saxophone?
In my (admittedly unwanted, but hopefully not stinking) opinion it would fit your musical style nicely. And I’d LOVE to see/hear you play sax on one of your songs or maybe even at a live gig some time. You know that your music gives me goose bumps as it is and a sax would just infinitely add to that.
… Like I said, just a thought!



RedondomomE June 1, 2011 at 6:50 am

Here I go, reading your post for probably the 100th time, trying so hard to comment but finding the words, or rather making them come out the right way (the perfect way) just doesn’t seem to happen. I’ve given a lot of thought to this. While I too can be considered a “lazy fuck” I have decided it’s not so much of being lazy (for me anyway) it’s more being afraid that what I am attempting isn’t going to be as perfect as I want. Rather than do something to what I may deem “half assed” why do it at all? Why give someone the opportunity to tell me what I attempted sucked or worse that I failed?? I guess then it turns not so much as being lazy but being afraid to try….but being afraid looks shittier than being lazy doesn’t it??? But then that’s how my life is…or rather has been. Regrets?? You bet! Would I go back and change it? In a fucking heartbeat.


Christina June 1, 2011 at 6:03 am

I can relate the lazy as fuck comments. That is honestly my life right now. I worked my ass off to get a degree to find out I can’t do what I’m passionate about because of the economy. Even teachers aren’t needed right now. I have no interest in working as anything but a teacher, so I pretty much get by on doing the least I can.


Leslie *app chix* June 1, 2011 at 3:05 am

Hey Billy! good to hear from you again! and thanx for stopping by the app! ok so answers to you questions..

“what would i give”….I would give a child who has nothing..who has never known family love all that i could. I would show them that they are important and people do care.
“what would i take”…absolutely nothing….I have everything i need right now…of course we could all use more money…but if it is the end of the world thenn money means nothing.

“where would i go” really dont have an answer for this one….Prolly Disneyworld to spend with my 2 little girls…that means the most to me.

“where would I stay”…right here at home with my family…

“who would i kiss”… my husband…just one more time…
“what laws would I make”…very simple…an eye for an eye….

“who would i punch in the face”…my neighbor for attempting suicide by OD a lttle over a year ago and still has a problem with pills….

“whose mind would i steal”….no ones….tons of people are smarter than me…but very few think the way I do….and I am okay with that….gotta be unique/…

as far as departure/arrival music goes….whatever me and my baby girls can “kitchen dance” to or whatever i can do a good head bob to….if its the end of time I wanna go out dancing my ass off and letting everyone know how much i love thm…

I believe everything happens for a reason….dont regret your past mistakes…if you hadn’t made that mistake another one would have been made that could have been WAY worse.


I stand by this quote because at the end of April my hometown dealt with the deadly tornados that came through Alabama…in between storms, my neighbors and my family waited outside for the next storm…but in the same process we played in the rain…we had fun. My area was not devastated but was damaged….we are so very blessed that it was not worse for us….these storms brought our neighbors together as a community…we went without power for 5 days..but we helped each other out..we cooked for the neighborhood….we had bonfires…made smores…thankful that we were able to do this…thankful that we, as neighbors, care enough to help each other out…

Once again Billy…good to hear from you again! hope to see you in the app soon! Love ya lots!


Heidi M May 31, 2011 at 6:50 am

If I had things to do over, I would worry less about work and money, & spend more time watching my kids grow. I would tell my dad I love him and goodbye before he passed away. I would stress less, and play music more! (very thought provoking! Thank you! Enjoy your baby! Before ya know it, you’ll blink and she’ll be grown)


Pamela May 31, 2011 at 5:23 am

I’d pile my kids into my dad’s truck. Drive down to Texas. Stock up on beer and chips on the way. Show up on my best friends door step. Toss my arms around him, kiss him (cuz lord knows he’s waited long enough for that) and proceed to get trashed and laugh until the world ends or zombies come or martians land or whatever it is these silly mayans think is going to happen. Have fun first, worry later, excellent way to live whether the world is ending or not.


Melinda May 31, 2011 at 4:21 am

This is my first time visiting your site, I think. But I just noticed your comment on twitter and thought I’d come give it a look. You have some interesting thoughts and questions and I think regardless of whether or not “the end is near” they are valuable ideas to reflect on. Initially, I’d want to travel the world, though I’ve been fortunate to see much already. I’d want to do things I’ve never done, meet people I’ve never met, have new experiences and all that. But I think if I really considered it, I’d choose differently. I too have young children and long for sleep. I don’t remember what that is. My daughter is almost 5 and my son is almost 2. They will keep you honest and teach you so much more about life and yourself than you ever thought possible. But I think a question of even more consequence than “What will I do if I only have a year and a half left?” is “How will I live if this is not the end?” And I don’t know, maybe it’s essentially the same concept. Perhaps it should be. I know that for me, I want to feel valuable, I want to feel like I’m making a difference in this world. Will I use that Master’s degree I worked so hard for or will I let it be wasted? But I think that for me, living in the mundane, unending seemingly monotonous existence is harder than giving it all you’ve got because you’re going to go out in a blaze of glory. How will I live for significance and the most impact when I’ve got butts to wipe and dishes to clean and no end in sight? Ideally, I’d be doing the same things as if I only had a year and a half left. I’d be loving my kids, loving my husband, using my life to show rather than tell, investing in my children, and being a loving person. Those things are what matter; not the exciting experiences or the impressive careers. As the cheesy country song goes – To the world, I’m just another girl, but to two little people and one husband, I’m the world. And I can’t be replaced in their lives.


bb May 31, 2011 at 7:50 am

Bravo. Here again, is a prime example of why I (and WE) ask the questions. I love your words, Melinda. “Valuable”, “significance”, “show, rather than tell”? Absolutely! Is there anyone in this universe who does not contemplate their RELEVANCE and it’s phantom nature? Does everyone’s “experience” not all boil down to the same thing? Have we not all got “butts to wipe and dishes to clean” either literally or metaphorically? Be it to ourselves or someone else– we ARE ALL someone’s world. Well spoken, my dear. THANK YOU -bb


Melinda May 31, 2011 at 7:03 pm

Yes, you are absolutely right. At our core, we are all alike. We all have the same needs and desires and struggles. It’s really freeing to remember that. As I stay at home with my kids and sometimes dream about what it would be like to just be able to go on a vacation with my husband or have a girl’s weekend with my friends, I need to remember that there are people on the other side of the fence who would give everything to have what I have. So I think it’s also about gratitude and being content where we are. We all have blessings as well as struggles and it’s all part of the beauty of life. I would hope that I would spend my life giving every last drop, rather than taking every last drop. And I definitely have not arrived. Like you’ve said, it’s the journey and we’re never really “there.” These words I write are every bit a reminder for myself that this is where my priorities need to be. As I go through the everyday, it’s easy to get bogged down and forget what is really important. If I have to hear “Mommy, Mommy, Mommy!” one more time I might go out of my mind sometimes. :) Learning to see the beauty in it is a challenge that I hope to realize every day in some way.

And by the way – WARNING: Completely frivolous and gratuitous gushing up ahead – I do have to say that your portrayal of Charlie was brilliant. I actually did not like his character in the books, but after seeing your version of him, he is one of my favorite characters in the stories. So in all seriousness I want to thank you for your work helping to provide a little entertainment to break up my monotony. :D It is in no way gratuitous or frivolous in my life. Girl’s gotta have some kind of break from the completely amazingly wonderful and beautiful little terrors. ;)


Beata August 7, 2013 at 2:11 pm

I don’t know how, but most of the respondents give similar answers what I would give if my English would be better. :D So Melinda wheter we aren’t in a same continent we feel the same. Thanks for share it!
Beata from Hungary


Vanessa Morton May 31, 2011 at 4:11 am

I would travel to the ends of the earth and have two more children. I would sing my heart out in front of millions of people and not be afraid. My theme song for leaving this earth would be “Bring me back to life” from Evanescence. If this is a new beginning then my life is complete except for one thing, I would be a doctor and get my schooling done and over with. Not ever looking back


Audra May 28, 2011 at 8:40 pm

Great to hear from you again here!

Nowadays it’s so hard to find time for yourself and loved ones, and if the end were really upon us I would drop anything and everything to be with those I love. I wouldn’t waste my time on those that don’t matter and spend every second that does with my friends, family and my wife.

Hope you’re enjoying your little getaway. Can’t wait to hear your second and any other CD that comes after that. Would love if you were able to do more shows, although I don’t think I’d be able to get away from Seattle again to see you in LA. My wife and I had a blast hearing you live and getting to interview you afterwards for fuckyeahbillyburke!


Laly May 28, 2011 at 3:16 pm

-all I have
-a last bite of dark chocolate
-on a world trip
- (see previous)
-R. (if he allows me)
-my dad
-I wouldn’t care about the laws if it was the end
- O. Wilde’s
-La Wally
If I knew .. a lot would be different.

ps: keep acting B., I never get fed up of seing your handsome you on the screen !


Debbie Prins May 27, 2011 at 8:19 pm

In these past few years I have been through the “end” of my life as I have come to know it!!! I have lost family and friends!!! I have walked away from an abusive relationship with a family member and I have come to terms with my long awaited(12 years of trying) and longed for daughter’s disability!!!!

I have had to make peace with the fact that some people will always judge me for my choices and I will never be able to please anyone completely except myself!!!

I have learnt that music has to touch my soul, for me to enjoy it! And love is truly the most important gift you can give yourself AND the most precious gift you can give away!!!

I have also learnt that sleep is a luxury but the giggle of your child is the best “upper” ever created!!! Seeing the joy in my angels eyes is what makes my heart sing but seeing her in pain is the closest to hell I can get on earth!!!

I would make it a law for every child to feel unconditional love and for people who hurt children to be tortured!!!

I would take only my heart and my memories and my loved ones! Nothing else matters enough!

Thank you


etphonehome May 26, 2011 at 8:31 pm

That’s deep man! Loved reading it – enjoy your holiday. I’m just a tiny bit jealous, haven’t had one for 3 years!


Jim Hechim May 26, 2011 at 7:20 pm

Hey Dante,

A great team of 3D rappers once sang:
“…you bettah watch your step…cause we’ll- be- there….
in your own technicolor 3D NIGH-TMARE!…”

Long time Billy…
I’m up when I should be sleeping….I work graveyard shift drivin a forklift…moving bags and boards…thinkin about my own DAREDREAMER “Ambitions”….about to marry the girl of my dreams…and being the step father to her 3 girls….on $11.75/hr.

Don’t be too hard on yourself…everything is happening in perfect order.

I can’t tell you how proud I am of your success….lazy fuck you think you are or not!

My nights are spent reflecting on too much “what could have been”…and “all my pack that made it….” and “is there a place for me still in the game….???”
I have had to work my ass off….literally broke my back….but came back on my own….rehabed my body and my spirit.
This is a great wave you are riding…and I can say with a huge smile…that I was there paddling out with you once….in the calm but new unpredictable waters… near a peaceful Northwest shore once upon a time. Billy went the distance…along with a few of our “pack”…and I for one want you and your fans to know how far you have traveled…making us proud to have shared some of that original inertia with you…some of those BIG dreams and creative spirit….
I solute you from atop a forklift…in between dreams…and as a fellow father now…with all the burning questions of existance and the eternal NOW before us all.

Dicky of the 3Ds


bb May 28, 2011 at 5:44 pm

Well hello Jimmy. Congrats on finding the girl of your dreams and becoming a daddy. Funny how happiness seldom looks like the picture we had of it. I dig your sentiment here but you know there IS no “made it”, right? We’re all just swimming from wave to wave. Patience, poise and persistence is the name of the game and hard work comes in many disguises. I stand and applaud you for yours.
Thank you so much for your kind and supportive words, amigo. I look forward to seeing you on down the road… -bb


Jim Hechim June 2, 2011 at 9:19 am

It’s 1:11 am BB (was when I started anyway)…a number/time that’s been appearing?/happening?/coincidence? on and off for years, but has escalated and become almost a daily “abbynormal” (see Art Bell) event or “sign”? or percursor….
between my fiance’ and I since our reunion after 22 years.
I will stay cryptic about that for personal reasons…
Someday we hope to write or otherwise share this story…and it will also have to come alongside a script that I started writing and put way just about that long ago…that is revealing too many specific and prophetic EXACT details that are coming to pass in this “hotel reality” at an amazing clip now. What does it all mean?
Not all sure…but SHE is laying next to me now…beside my cat….sleeping away in our little room under a special handmade gift she gave me for my birthday this last weekend. This gift….I wrote about almost 22 years ago!
BTW! You made one of my stepdaughter’s day today when I told her Billy replied to the coment I left him! Thanks for that too! She is just coming out of this brutal stomach flu going around here…her baby sister and I both suffered through just a couple days ago. They have all followed your TWIGHLIGHT movies and books. She for one would be blown away surprised if you said “Hello”, but I will have to not say her name for parental paranoia reasons!!! Let’s just say WE are so proud of her big comeback in school this year…in particular ALGEBRA!!!! She’s an artist…cerebral, quiet, humble and open minded and questions everything….I LOVE THAT!

As far as the whole “TWILIGHT” cult/movement/following/fanbase/big club???? Sorry “Ghost of Dante of 3D’s past”….don’t know shit about any of that!! They are all chomping at the bit to bring me up to speed….on yours and on many films I’ve missed! Kind of denied myself “movies” for years. More than one reason…but in part – feel like a professional athlete that is so far away from the game or field…IDK, I’m not even in the parking lot…let alone in the right town….and suffer that jones to participate and play… and being a “spectator” is salt on the wounds. My own bullshit…no worries, I’m not just done with that love/passion/curse….just on a long hiatus! Stay tuned…
Have an audition tomorrow for some film…
Ironic….just got out of jury duty too!

I did read allot and listened to years of late night radio….

So good to even here the name “JIMMY” after all these years…you, my old martial art’s master and my Mom still call me that! Thanks ‘ORTEGA’!!! I feel like I’m about to get carded again! By the way, I was recalling shooting pool at belltown billiards place back in the day…think we snuck in bottle of JD? I remember you, me, jdm, thomas…maybe adam e….some of you band mates from BB and the OUTCAST THEATRE….and my last recall of that night was throwing up on Thomas’s jacket when you guys dropped me off at my gate in Pioneer Square! Was that the hangover morning we had to shoot the AWESOME entrance into the school….and lucked out that we all got to where ray bans??? I know we partied like it was 1999….
Ahhhh….those were the good ol (brrrp) days in Seattle…right before MTV and Nirvana opened up the GRUNGE SUPERHIGHWAY FOR ALL TO COME and take part of the “Seattle Scene”??? But I digress….and truth be told, I liked NIRVANA….and ALLOT of other music from that cool little city I once called home.

Btw….I too love what you got started here in a wave of discussion and consideration…and will mention again, I have been an Art Bell and long time COAST TO COAST AM fan for years….late night radio saved my mind during all these graveyard years!
So 2012 is all too familiar…all the questions and mysteries….the amazing alignments of other cultures and ideas….science and even possibly some NEW science and/or physics…quantum/metaphysics….or nothing at all…that may emerge. All good to consider…or be willling to anyway….look at lot’s of opinions and “artifacts”…so called “prophecy”…calanders…all the above –
but BUYER BEWARE as well is in order. Lotta mind f-ng and time invested in it to control those minds with fear….gloom and doom….etc etc.
Follow the money….and/or the agenda?
I might consider this too….Reincarnation.
Let’s just say (and I am) that this happens.
So my question in a similar light or maybe BIG idea or event…such as your 2012 propositions….hypotheticals….
IF you knew that you had….and would AGAIN reincarnate….(pick your form…)
how would that change the way you deal with anything or anyone?
Maybe consider KHARMA in all that too….?
Not sure that is a true equation all the time? Kharma?
Nothing new here….I’m just a forklift driver.
But if you considered that you’d have to come back to the world….or your slice of it….and you shit all over it….or the people… or their hearts/freewill….along the way….
It’d have to change many people’s DAILY MANTRAS and the WAYS they treated EVERYTHING and EVERYONE. No? Maybe a little?
Too deep for me now, I’m so zzzzzzzzzzleepy.
I gotta get to bed or I am not going to be able to remember these two easy lines for my BIG audition in the morning!


RWDean May 26, 2011 at 6:59 pm

You pose some thoughtful questions. As an almost 65 year old man, whose life could definitely have worked out better, I’ve given quite a bit of thought to all of them, or ones pretty close to them. I’d give all that I have, and all I’ll ever have, to win back the love of my children. I’m way beyond taking anything, I’ll leave that to the others. If I had the legs to carry me, I’d go anywhere I’ve not been, and I’d stay only long enough to make sure I’ve left no tracks. There are so many I should have kissed, and a less shallow man would have, that I’d take any kisses offered and be glad to have them. I’ve punched more than my share of faces, and more than my share of fists with my face, in this life, and I guess I should just be apologizing for most of that. I’m also beyond making laws, at least for others, I haven’t lived up to my own the way I should have. There’s quite a few I’d get rid of though, mostly those that harken back to the intolerance of most of the world’s religions. I guess I’m not much into stealing the mind of anyone else, I’m pretty used to the one I have, but if I could steal the heart of a pretty girl, or a woman who would accept me for what I am, I’d surely do that. To the folks I’ve put in charge of my departure, I have only one demand; no Christian music, it would just be too hypocritical.
If I could start over, well, there’s no end to the things I’d change. Mostly, I would try a lot harder to avoid hurting anyone, and to take hurt a lot less easily. But there are a bunch of things I’d keep the same, like steering by the stars, out on the ocean at midnight, during an August meteor shower, and the lopsided cake my wife made for me, after we had an argument, that said “I love you” on it. I’d try to keep all the times of love I’ve had in this life too. I don’t get many of those anymore, so I have to search them out vicariously, in places like those damned Twilight stories. I know, what is a 65 year old man doing, reading that, but you have to take love wherever you can find it.
Now, write some more songs and record a new album.


bb May 28, 2011 at 3:29 pm

I fucking love this response. Read it 4 times. I reckon THIS is the reason I threw these questions out to you all. Right on RWDean. I love it when a man who has really lived (as you obviously have) can speak with such beautiful abandon. A big lopsided cake to you, maestro. And yes, I am working on another record. Thank you for your venerable words. Be well. -bb


Anabelle July 11, 2011 at 5:11 pm

You’re right Billy, listen to the words of a wise man’s heart through the years he has lived and still has the ability to see love in a movie, a song, a starry night or a memory of a crooked cake, that’s invaluable. Thanks to you I have also received this gift. I hope your new album almost eagerly


Lavinia May 26, 2011 at 2:38 pm

How disturbingly prophetic and yet oddly appropriate. Today I found out I have a brain tumor. Non-cancerous, quite small and unlikely to kill me, but there’s nothing like a kick to the cojones to make one question their role in this universe and realise that the sense of immortality we all take for granted is but a fleeting dream. Existentialism? Undoubtedly. In amongst bouts of unadulterated self-pity and random rants at the universe and everything therein, questions like ‘what next’ and ‘where to from here’ resonate like a broken record. My conclusion? Simple, straightforward and to the point. Live each day to the fullest, take no prisoners, be true to yourself and others, and have no regrets. Actions don’t matter; reactions do.

I think you said it best yourself –
“The ride is the trip, kids. Knowing we survived it without dissolving into a cliché reaffirms my belief that anything is possible when “quit” is not an option.”

(By the way, brilliant work on the first album. Now get off your lazy ass and make the next one!!)


bb May 28, 2011 at 9:31 pm

Been contemplating this one a bit, Lavinia. I always find it a bit precarious responding to news such as yours from someone I don’t know but it sounds like you’ve got a handle on it, and I dig your “no regrets” outlook. Not sure I fully grasp your “actions don’t matter” concept but as long as it works for you… THAT’S what matters.
I wish you a speedy recovery and a wide open road from there on.
… and my lazy ass is indeed writing new songs all the time. -bb


Lavinia May 29, 2011 at 11:08 am

My apologies if my post made anyone feel maudlin; that certainly wasn’t my intention. Quite the opposite. I’m ok with this. I don’t choose to view it as a tragedy, rather a wake-up call to stop procrastinating and get out there and live. Hence the reason I viewed your questions as timely.

What did I mean by actions don’t matter, reactions do? Don’t go through life being something you’re not and acting in a way that isn’t true to you, react from your heart as long as you won’t hurt anyone else. Forgive those that have wronged you and if you can’t, don’t waste any more energy hating them for things you can’t change. If life hands you lemons, grab a bottle of tequila and say thanks! Don’t even regret the hangover in the morning, wear it as a badge of a damn good time! Don’t waste time regretting what you don’t have, take joy in what you do have. Leave a positive mark in someone’s life, and honour those that have done the same in yours (like the way your post got me thinking – I thank you for that). In short? Don’t sweat the small stuff and take nothing for granted.

So I’m dusting off my ‘Bucket List’ and getting started. I’m gonna jump out of a plane just because I can (here’s to hoping the parachute opens!!). I’m gonna hike to the top of Mount Kosciuszko, drink champagne and watch the sun rise. Learn how to swim and go diving with the sharks. Eat more chocolate, count less calories, bake more lopsided cakes with ‘I Love You’ on them! And if I should finally happen to meet Mr Right between now and the end, I’m gonna make every moment count. And do it all with a wink and a smile.

And my parting song? U2’s Beautiful Day. ‘Nuf said.

Anyway, enough of my psycho-babble – I sound like a bad Hallmark greeting card. How prosaic! I appreciate your taking the time to reply and your well-wishes. I’ll be fine – I refuse to settle for anything else. Although I have to say, if I beat this and the Mayans are right and it all ends in 2013, I’m gonna be very pissed off lol :)

Enjoy your vacation, and all the best with whatever new venture you have up your sleeve next. I look forward to checking it out.


Kimmy May 26, 2011 at 12:25 pm

lol and I thought I could waffle…. :) Good to hear you are still alive out there and taking a breather.
Hmm – if the world was ending tomorrow next year – I wouldnt worry so much about the big things that it’s too late to do anything about and just enjoy the little things – a sunny day, hugs from my nieces and nephews, the cat sleeping in front of the heater in the most unladylike pose imaginable, a good Billy Burke movie, a good Adele song, laughing with my friends, a nice sunset cuddle with my man…

Things I would get rid of – domestic violence (the abuse, not the laws), taxes, and parking meters!

Things I would introduce – free ice cream, free travel (see as much as the world as you can before its gone if you want to), 5 day weekends and 2 day working weeks!

Next for me – my bed, its 12.20 am :) After that – who knows. Sometimes life happens to us and sometimes we make life happen, all I know is, if you arent happy with something in your life, dont sit around whinging about it, get off your ass and change it. You are the only one who can. :)


bb May 27, 2011 at 9:51 pm

Amen, sister. Your cat obviously digs where your comin’ from. Preach it.
Thanks -bb


CleoC May 26, 2011 at 7:09 am

The most genuine words I have read recently…Thank you mr. Burke for sharing these thoughts with us!

So here are mine…

When you are thinking what is next for you in life, the first thing you need to do is see through yourself. There are so many things that hold us down literally and we cannot open our winds and fly. My first wish is to finish a journey I have started for some time now, that mostly has to do with finding my self, my true self, and re-inventing me.

For some might sound weird but if you start over then things become clearer…
I don’t believe that the END is coming. I truly believe that every end is a new beginning…But if the end was ahead of us I would like to do the following…

These days I am focused on my writings. I realized that I am a storyteller. A writer or a poet, it doesn’t matter what the label might be, only the notion. So, I would like to finish writing my first novel and get it published. I would be really pleased with myself if someone was touched by my work.

Then, I would like to travel around the world. See places I have read about and finally meet some international friends. It would be lovely to hug someone in reality and not only as a *hug* quotation on a SNS.

I would like to have fun with my friends, to forgive all those that hurt me and move on ( I am already working on it )

Now, who I would like to kiss? I don’t know it yet…surely a man who knows how to “catch” me.

About the laws? I would like to see society changing…people being more aware of what is going on around them and somewhere in the way to come in terms with each other and have peace. A universal one not just in words and papers…

That’s all I can think of now…



Leteisha May 26, 2011 at 4:10 am

I’d give a big ‘fuck you’ to those who had done me wrong and I’d make all those whom I’ve done wrong by do the same to me. I’d take my mother and uncle to Italy and give them something that we can all remember. We’d go out and boost a vintage Mustang and take it out on a raceway. When I’d get back I would kiss those who I hadn’t had the guts to kiss and then I’d make it my duty -once its all over- to party with Jimmy Dean.

Question though: Have you ever considered writing a book? Not necessarily a autobiography, but a work of fiction, perhaps? I’m taken with your lyrical writing style and would buy anything you put out – even under an alias (I’d recognise your style anywhere).
Much love to you and your family.


Jodi Shaw May 26, 2011 at 3:20 am

So many questions but so profound… Guess if I knew it were REALLY & TRULY going to end, I’d spend every waking moment with my beautiful daughter. It would be hard to not waste the time crying over losing so much. It took us 3 long years to adopt her. We haven’t had her with us long enough yet. But I would give her all the love & attention humanly possible… Music… hmm…. without a doubt, I’d have to listen to my top faves… First & foremost, I’m a Beatles junkie. Some George Winston, early Elton, Vivaldi’s 4 Seasons… The Cure… Depeche Mode… a soundtrack or 2… Laws… easy… anyone who truly loves the one they are with should be free to commit to each other without prejudice.


Maverick May 26, 2011 at 12:52 am

Very Deep Burke. As for what I would do … I Would Go Back East. Almost ten years ago I dropped everything, walked out the door with nothing, and didn’t look back. I’ve lived my life these last years doing what I wanted, going where I wanted etc. Now, I would go back east, meet up with old friends and family and see where that leads me.
You really get one thinking Burke, Keep It Up. Best Regards.


Liz May 25, 2011 at 11:56 pm

Dude, I wish I could have a definite answer, but who the hell knows what I’ll do if indeed we only have a year and a half left. I would probably just let the chips fall where they may and then if there is some kind of afterlife or whatever happens after we all die, I’ll look back on life, my muses, and actions that led me to where my mentality and my soul would then be.


Jill May 25, 2011 at 11:40 pm

What would I do? first what should you do. Take a chance on your music full time…. sing, travel, sing, play…you have a voice and talent…use it. Take a chance….people will come see you….
what would I do…max out my credit cards, travel watching my favorites sing, concerts…Amos Lee, Billy Burke, Bon Jovi, Kid…..too many to list, but I would go to them all.
what would I give/take-all my worldly possessions except my blow dryer and clothes and nursing liscence…I would volunter to help if I could wherever I travelled to see these musicians.
who would I kiss, cant tell…
who would I punch in the face…..holy shit I know a few…I cant tell because I am a lover not a fighter so I would have to punch them and run like hell
What music would be my soundtrack…first Amos Lee second Billy Burke, especially if he just starts doing concerts…third maybe Pat Green…..
thanks for posting, and stop waiting so long…..for you, one burbon, one scotch and one beer…now buy a buy and go on tour…..=} plz


JJ May 25, 2011 at 11:29 pm

You are such an inspiration, really. I’m not just saying that because you’re Billy Burke, I’m saying it because it’s true. Not alot of people are doing anything anymore. I change everyday. I go with what makes me happy. If doing nothing makes me content, I do nothing. Other days I’m a busy bee and you wouldn’t think I spent the pervious day on the couch. And as life goes on you have to change; adapting(spelling) is one thing people seem to fail at.
The way you put things, in my book, is……well if anyone has a problem with it they can piss off because voices should never be silenced.

p.s. you’re an amazing writer, wanna write my essays for school?
just kidding!


Anabelle May 25, 2011 at 8:43 pm

traducción del español al inglés

Hi Billy, here my answers
1. Much love
2. My memories
3. To see snow
4. With my love
5. No change to my love, kissing is the best
6. Those who betrayed me
7. Murphy’s Law, I have fucked
8. You, Billy Burke
9. Stairway to heaven by Led Zeppelin and the disk along the way Billy Burke
10. Take more risks and have less fear
11. I believe that love and keep loving and rocking, of course

I still love you =D


Anabelle May 25, 2011 at 8:22 pm

Hey Billy, great your reflection
It’s wonderful that you feel well in your role as father of the beautiful Bluesy (by his mother and you, of course, for you) (I’m biased about it because you’re the most handsome in the world to me = D)
It is true that when we have our children and watch them grow from reaching the world, is the best and most valuable work of our lives. Anyway you’re just not the same as being lazy and sleeping, and so like it I do not think you’re going to fall into any wrong, that’s part of life and we all have this period of neglect or something. But you’re really a troubadour and a poet and an artist, your daughter is lucky to have you as a dad.

I wish God bless your family with all my heart and I’m glad you could take that vacation after all that work and I’m waiting for your next album where you secure your happiness will inspire.
The calendar, I have faith that not be the end but a new beginning, which I like because I also I have two little girls and I would enjoy a little more.
Thank you for those questions, I will answer and tell you ja-ja

Congratulations for your work on The Red Ridding Hood and Drive Angry, I loved you as always. See you in Breaking Dawn

Please do not leave us again so long without news from you, and excuse my English =/
With Love Anabelle


arabianbleu May 25, 2011 at 8:14 pm

Can you post a big photo of you????? Please


Anabelle July 11, 2011 at 5:58 pm

Do not know how to add the photo in my profile !!!??? Help!


arabianbleu May 25, 2011 at 8:11 pm

Hi Billy: I like you are and if you change anything of your life I’m sure It’s for improve, but if you wrong, it doesn’t matter, man. Just I ask you, don’t destroy the world!!!!


Buckskin Lizzy May 25, 2011 at 4:47 pm

I would embrace my enemies, this scares them. I would bring back all of my friends that have past(which is too many) just for a minute to tell them how much I miss and love them. I would ride my horse buck naked as fast as he will go…………..and try not to fall off, cause that hurts. Alot. Then drink some Jager and watch the sunset one more time. Laugh hysterically about absolutely nothing. Kiss my Grandchildren. Thanks God I’m alive for one more day.


bb May 27, 2011 at 9:56 pm

Preach it, Buckskin. I hope that’s your legal name ’cause it’s awesome. Now get out and ride! … your friends would demand it.
Thanks -bb


Buckskin Lizzy May 30, 2011 at 2:30 am

Billy you rock!!! Buckskin Lizzy isn’t my legal name, dammit. One more Buckskin hit the earth on friday night. Yet again a miracle at my feet. My beautiful Smutty Buckskin mare birthed an angel at my feet. A little Buckskin Dun filly. The ironic part is we only got to view this miracle due to yet another awesome song writer( such as yourself) that goes by the name of American Gypsy. She writes songs from the heart about real people. I happen to grace the cover of her 3rd CD that is called Let me be…free. She wrote a song about me and my Buckskin stallion Zip. It’s #13. I am riding my Iron Horse on the cover. You should check out her music. If she wouldn’t have been late, I would not have been able to witness my miracle. We helped her into this world and she is of course named Just An American Gypsy. Ride hard and keep writing such passionate music. You give me goose bumps………..BL


Karol May 25, 2011 at 12:07 pm

¿Puedes traducir? por que se me da muy mal el inglés. Como sea, gracias a un traductor logré entender (en gran medida) lo que has querido decir Billy.
Todos deberíamos llegar a un punto de nuestra vida en la que nacen todas estas interrogantes, pero muy poca gente le pone atención.
Llevo mucho tiempo tomando mi vida como si tuviese una enfermedad terminal, aunque no la tenga. ¿Por qué? Fácil, por que es la única manera en la que valoras lo que tienes, lo que tuviste y lo que tendrás.
Si yo he de morir en el tiempo que me han dicho, solo espero poder cumplir una última meta que me queda pendiente, lo demás, lo he vivido, y lo he vivido bien.
Aprendí a reir, a llorar, a sentir, a sentir el aire en mis pulmones, aprendí a valorar mi existencia y a desperdiciarla. Tengo sólo 21 años Billy, pero siento que he vivido mas.
Lo último que me queda por hacer es un viaje, el cual me dirá si puedo aprender a amar.
¿Mi banda sonora de música?, toda!. La música es un arte que se siente, se respira, casi se puede tocar y produce las emociones mas hermosas que se puedan experimentar.
Y finalmente, no creo que muchas cosas cambien. Hasta el último momento mi día odiado será el lunes, mi día favorito el sábado, seguiría sin color favorito, y espero que el día apocalíptico me sorprenda escuchando música flamenca y esa hermosa guitarra. (Y de pasada una canción tuya que me encanta)
Ok, Eso.
No te responderé una a una tus preguntas por que sé lo que has querido decir.
Un abrazo a la distancia, un poco de calor humano cibernetico.
Te envío un beso con el viento y una caricia con un rayo de sol, que lo prenderé en tu cabello, y que allí se quede.
Cariños y mucho amor desde Chile.


bb May 27, 2011 at 9:42 pm

Wish I spoke Spanish. If I did, I’m sure I’d be telling you that your response was brilliant. Thanks though (I mean muchos gracias) -bb


Lin May 25, 2011 at 11:36 am

Oh my gosh, Well I’m not sure about any of those questions. But here goes:

“What would you give?”
My heart, my soul, my spirit, my self. Every memory I have good and bad. The love I hold inside for everyone.

“What would you take?”
Nothing. I wouldn’t want anything. I would want everyone else to choose and I’d have what was left.

“Where would you go?”
To where ever I was needed as long as my boyfriend was with me.

“Where would you stay?”
Again anywhere I was needed.

“Who would you kiss?”
My boyfriend… no competition there!

“Who would you punch in the face?”
I wouldn’t waste the energy on anyone.

“What laws would you make (more importantly which ones would you get rid of)?”
I agree with Petra on this one. Free will? What’s that? I would make sure that there were no laws against people living as they want to live. Everyone has the right to live how they want to.

“Who’s mind would you steal?” Living or Dead?
Einstein’s? Dan Brown? J K Rowling? Tim Burton? lol! No idea really, I think I should just keep my own!

“What music would be the soundtrack to your departure/arrival?”
Well Removed is a great album to relax to! Yes? If I couldn’t have yours then it would have to be any love songs or anything by Take That!

“What’s “next” for YOU?” I am waiting for my prince to rescue me and show me that love can be true if you believe it is. While I wait I will continue to breath in and out and live each day as if it’s my last. Live, laugh, love and by happy!

I am glad you’ve been back on to let us know that you are at least thinking about us, albeit briefly! Hope you enjoy the rest of your vacation. Can’t wait for the next installment but please don’t leave it as long next time, OK?

Love to you and your family

Lin xxxxxxxxxx : )


bb May 27, 2011 at 9:38 pm

Well, I hope your boyfriend’s not too shattered when this “prince” you’re waiting for stumbles along. True love? Eh, (shrug)… it is what you make it and that’s all it can be, no?
Thanks for your words. Be well -bb


Leti May 25, 2011 at 11:34 am

1. Courage
2. Love
3. Kenia
4. Living by the seaside
5. The guy I met at the supermarket eleven years ago
6. Who betrayed me
7. Kindness will be rewarded. (Murphy’s Law…!)
8. Robert Redford
9. Harvest by John Berry
10. I wouldn’t be afraid
11. Live the life I love, love the life I live

Keep rockin’ man, we love you


bb May 27, 2011 at 9:19 pm

Redford. Good one. Can’t say I’ve heard John Berry. Thanks for the answers though


Raven Shepherd May 25, 2011 at 11:16 am

I can understand how things can be up in the air after having a baby (I have an 11 yr old son and and 8 1/2 yr old daughter) Your life ceases to be about you, your want, or your needs once you have a child and instead revolves around the tiny miracle you helped create. Your soul no longer resides inside of you and instead giggles, drools, and puts everything in their mouth as you watch over it.
The only true advice I can give you is don’t worry about what people will think of you, simply try to deflect the bad shit (since opinions are like assholes, everyone has one and most of them stink) and remember that it is okay to lose your bearings. Oh, and the next person who tells you that they have life figured out, rest assured that they are lying through their teeth.
I have no clue how much that will help or hinder you, but good luck and best wishes.



bb May 27, 2011 at 9:15 pm

Actually, I love opinions… when they’re asked for (like I have here). It’s only when they’re NOT that they seem a bit foul and leave a bad taste in my mouth. Thanks for your thoughts -bb


Ali May 25, 2011 at 11:08 am

Well hello, Mr. Burke!

So, my answers to your questions:

What would you give – Anything and Everything to ensure my familys safety to the “other side”

Who would I kiss? My husband and my two kids. However, I’m pretty sure he’d give me a pass, so I’d hunt you down and give you smooches on your cheek ;)

Where woudl I go? I’d like to find a little spot overlooking the water – that is, if there’s an ocean on the other side. I’d watch my kids splash around and revel in their youthful innocence.

Who would I punch in the face? My ex-husband! Stupid jerface. The rapture can come and take him away anytime, thank you. And his stupid new wife. (No, i’m not bitter he’s remarried – there’s just history there, which I will spare you. Lets just say he should be the poster child for mandatory sterilization for “men” who abuse their wives and children)

What laws would I make/change – gay marriage for one – it shouldn’t matter who you love, as long as you’re treated well.

Music? I’d have to bring my external hard drive because it has everything on it. I have way too many to list, but I’ll give you the run down – Josh Groban, Yours (because I listen to it weekly), Michael Buble, and Eminem. Don’t just me on the last one, man.

What’s next for me? I’m not exactly sure, either. I’d hope that a change for the better is coming – God knows we’ve struggled with the recession. But I guess the main thing is that as long as my family is safe, healthy and happy, then that’s all that matters, right?

And, did I read that right – you’re going on tour? Please come to MN. Seriously. Would love to hear you live.

Peace and Love!



bb May 27, 2011 at 7:10 pm

No real plans for a tour right now but it IS something I’m feeling more and more compelled to do. We’ll se how soon this next record comes together then maybe I’ll lean on myself a bit harder to take the time off my day job.
Thanks for your thoughts -bb


Katriina May 25, 2011 at 10:50 am

Thank you for being open to us, your fans. It’s relieving to realize that an artist like you have similar thoughts of life (with kids).
What would I do if world came to an end… Hold my 3 kids close, kiss them and maybe even allow their dad to join (even he’s done wrong to me).
What to do differently if I’d start from scratch – I wish I could promise not to shout to my children ever again but just to kiss and cuddle them even more often than I already do… I’d laugh more, that’s for sure.
Best wishes to your little cutie!


bb May 27, 2011 at 6:48 pm

Yes. Cuddle the young’uns. What else that good can you get for free?
Thank u -bb


Petra May 25, 2011 at 7:29 am

You truly are a troubadour, a poet, a philosopher. It’s always nice to read your musings and this one was over due!

But you’re not the only one (neither the only troubadour, nor the only one who constantly stumbles over his/her own need for perfection).
You asked for this, so let me be the first to answer your great “What if?” (and in some detail, if that’s okay):

“What would you give?” – Everything… I’d always want to give everything. I am trying to, but often I find myself standing and waiting for… well, something to happen instead of making something happen myself.

“What would you take?” – I’d take a few more risks. If only risks weren’t inevitably connected to the possibility of losing important things/people, I guess I’d be taking more risks already.

“Where would you go?” – To any place on this planet where I have friends. Maybe even go there permanently. The only thing keeping me rooted here is my family. The urge to go, to just leave and start anew is strong in me sometimes, but reason is always there… instantly… reminding me why I can’t leave. Reminding me that I couldn’t just leave without breaking more than a few hearts. And that is something I just can’t do: break hearts.

“Where would you stay?” – Cheesy, but true: in my husband’s arms. The only place in this world where I am at home.

“Who would you kiss?” – Literally? Only my husband. (Even after 1 1/2 years of marriage and 10 1/2 years in a relationship with him.) Proverbially… everyone who means something in my life (and, oh surprise, that includes you ;)) I know that I don’t tell the important people in my life often enough just how important they are.

“Who would you punch in the face?” – Oh, that’s a nice one. There are actually two people in my life I’d like to punch… or humiliate in public… or do other nasty stuff to. But that’s a long story.

“What laws would you make (more importantly which ones would you get rid of)?” – I’d get rid of everything that keeps people from being who they are, living they way they want to, saying what they think. Laws I’d make would be enforcing that.

“Who’s mind would you steal?” – Depends on what for. Steal to have a look into… Any of the great musicians’, Stephen King’s, yours… Steal to keep for myself (or maybe even replace my own mind with)… no ones, I like my mind. ;)

“What music would be the soundtrack to your departure/arrival?” – Okay, I do not have to answer that one for you… right? (Other than that… my other all time favorites: Pink Floyd, Metallica, a lot of Blues, a lot of Jazz. Just the good stuff, you know?)

“What’s “next” for YOU?” – I am just as clueless about that as you are. I know that I made some wishes, sent some “requests” out to the big great void, the universe or whoever is listening out there. I also know that lately some of those wishes/requests have already come true. There’s one big wish left I am still hoping and waiting for. And I have a feeling that something is going to change soon. But I have no idea what that’s going to be. Funnily enough I am not afraid of that change. It feels good, feels right. Feels like a lot of new and good stuff is going to enter my life.

So, I guess my answer to all of your questions is: “We’ll see. Just let go and let’s see where life takes us.”

In light of the changes noted above I’d like to add some general things:
Thank you for your music! For sharing your mind with us, at least sometimes. For still giving me food for thought… and… for everything else (you know…).

Enjoy the rest of your holidays! Share some pics with us, if you can. Come back rested and refreshed and then… get off your lazy butt and keep working on that next album!



bb May 27, 2011 at 6:40 pm

Ah yes… “waiting for something to happen”. I wonder if ANYONE’S not guilty of that at one time or another. I hope you find a way to sneak in some of your dreams.
Hearts are more resilient and forgiving that we think. Those who truly love us want the best for us, no? Sometimes you have to be more attentive to your OWN heart, lest it too lives on being broken. Thank you for your thoughts and kind words.


Petra May 28, 2011 at 4:37 pm

Oh, I hope you’re right… I hope that hearts are more resilient than I give them credit for most of the time. Because you can’t really avoid hurting people, right?
As long as my longing for places far away can still be satisfied with a few weeks of vacation every now and again, I guess my own heart is going to be fine.
But I think you’re right, sometimes you have to put yourself first…


Anabelle July 11, 2011 at 5:56 pm

Hi petra,
your heart is great, I share my thoughts on your ideas and love for Billy to believe it or not is a great sage whose words our hearts healthy and happy
Thanks for your thoughts
And you, Billy I still admire and love you, of course = D


Petra July 13, 2011 at 9:50 am

Thanks, Anabelle, I really appreciate that!


Julianna October 29, 2013 at 11:14 pm

Sorry missed one..What laws would you make (more importantly which ones would you get rid of)? The corruption of the foul wealthy in and connected to Govt usually find a way around the laws for themselves..but I’d make them ALL pay back taxes for the last 10 years to help bail us out. AND Lower their salaries, as well as mandate limits on their vacations. Soldiers, active and retired, would always have free healthcare and Never have to pay taxes again..they offered their Lives for our protection afterall. And I would make Global International Laws against Human Trafficking and the recruitment of Child Soldiers and hire the Heroes to search out and Rescue them all! =) <3 <3 <3


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